Pause

It's been
two years since you tried to speak to me
ordered these songs up to
flow into my ears,
maybe strike something deeper,
once they were in
and now they're playing unrequited
through my speakers

it's been
six months since you spoke to me
ordered your words up to
maneuver the strange terrain
of "us, now"
and there is no question of depth,
only the shallow struggle of awkwardness

but in between
I hit "pause" on my heart
when it got too hard to listen to
and now I'm two years behind
and six months in
trying to understand
the soundtrack of
getting over you.

~May 21, 2006