Yes to Now

The spaces of relationships
I've left behind
trail me like huge
cavernous seed pods
in which I could get caught
in the echoes of what I thought
they could grow

carnivorous seed pods

I can't stop writing this idea
like a song stuck in your mind
the things I thought I wanted are
the only things I seem to think about

because those thoughts are caught
in the structures of songs
shades of grey sky
the weave of my clothing,
only I can't see my thoughts
I can't pick out the stitches you sewed
or make the sun shine into my mind
or stop listening to tragic love songs.
Maybe that's ok
maybe saying yes to now
is not saying yes to forever

~November 11, 2011